crowd, scared

Apologize. That word always sits in my throat like an egg, I can hardly force my vocal cords to want to verbalize “I want to…. Ap – ol – o – gize.”

Why is this such a forgotten concept in our culture? No one ever wants to apologize because maybe, just maybe it means they are wrong. {Tweet this Quote!}

Although I know deep, deep down that I am wrong- saying it out loud puts me in such a vulnerable place that I feel like I’m giving a speech naked in front of 1,000 people.

But I am on a long journey of asking God’s Holy Spirit who I am designed to be, instead of who I am currently acting as. {Tweet this Quote!} If God wants us to strive to be holy and perfect, although we know as human beings we’ll never attain it… shouldn’t we try? Philippians 3:12, “I don’t mean to say that I have already achieved these things or that I have already reached perfection. But I press on to possess that perfection for which Christ Jesus first possessed me.”

I read one of those cutesy life change quotes yesterday. It said, “Do something every day that scares you.” Well I think besides the zombie apocalypse or giving a speech in my birthday suit, apologizing to someone I’ve hurt is my #1 fear. Check that off my daily to-do list for like… a whole week, son.

Can I tell you something though? Each time you apologize to someone who deserves it- it gets easier. Not easy, just easier. Even as a minister, I’ve used words that have cut down and wounded others; whether I meant to or not. Once you speak a word you cannot get it back. It’s a done deal.

Good thing Jesus dying on the cross for the eternity of harsh words is also a done deal.  {Tweet this Quote!}
Can I tell you something else? That feeling you get each time you pick up the phone to call and apologize, or the laptop to type… that feeling that says:

  • “You’re being so doofy.”
  • “You can’t apologize now, it’s too late.”
  • “They don’t even remember. And even if they do, they won’t forgive you!”
  • “You’re making a bigger deal of this than it really was…”
  • “They hate you for what you did.”
    or the biggest, “What you did is etched in time. You can’t fix it now. There’s no hope.”
  • Those feelings are all lies from Satan himself to get you to harbor that original bitterness and keep your apology shut in your head, never to restore a relationship. Never to become more like Christ by admitting your wrongs.

    Those are the things satan wants. Good thing he has no power where God’s Light shines! Good thing the Light of Christ lives within each of us who believe and follow Christ. Good thing it is for freedom we are set free! Good thing Jesus already died on the cross for those harsh words you spoke, those deeds you did. {Tweet this Quote!}

    So be free. Pick up the phone. The pen. The laptop. Make it right. Swallow your pride, Brittany.

    Jesus was so relational, that He laid down His life for His friends. Let’s be willing to at least lay aside our pride for ours. John 15:13, “Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends.” {Tweet this Quote!}

    Rain, sweet rain

    20140717-083143-30703278.jpgHere in West Texas I hear we’ve been in a drought for around five years. In our one year, I can count the times it has rained on one hand, literally.
    I sit and wonder if the physical condition is a picture of The Church’s heart condition.
    I know so many Christians (myself included) who say, “oh a 30% chance of rain? That’ll never happen.”
    We’re never optimistic, knowing The One Who can calm the seas!
    I still believe there is yet another Great Awakening that will rise out of the churches of the Permian Basin who wish to align themselves with God, humbling themselves to apologize for the atrocities of The Church of all time.
    In 2 Chronicles 7:12-14 God speaks to Solomon, “I have heard your prayer and have chosen this place for myself as a house of sacrifice. When I shut up the heavens so that there is no rain, or command the locust to devour the land, or send pestilence among my people, if my people who are called by my name humble themselves, and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and heal their land.”
    Buckle up, Permian Basin! God is going to send that slow, steady, permeating, permanent rain– the Living Water that never runs dry!
    I believe we need to pray a bit more boldly for the things we know God knows that we need.

    So if He knows, cares, and always provides… Then why are we settling on asking Him for less?

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    The Kind of Request God Answers Immediately


    I got thinking about this: when we pray for the Holy Spirit to convict us of areas we need to change or habits we can’t seem to shake- God answers and delivers right away.
    There are silly flaws and habits I can’t seem to shake, like talking or rambling too long, biting my nails, whatever. But at the root of a lot of them for me is low confidence & longing to be heard. Which in turn means low confidence in God’s work in my life and how He hears and loves me as His child.
    I told him this, and as I was asking, I realized He was about to change me, and help me. I told him I can’t do it on my own anymore. I told Him I acknowledge His goodness in the past is still the goodness He will give in the future. I told Him I recognize and acknowledge His power and mercy. I told Him I want to stop trying to kick these habits and hangups on my own and become the woman He intended for me to be.
    I love how David asks God to take everything away that’s of him and allow God to work in His life in Psalm 51:10-17;
    “Create in me a pure heart, O God,
    and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
    Do not cast me from your presence
    or take your Holy Spirit from me.
    Restore to me the joy of your salvation
    and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.
    Then I will teach transgressors your ways,
    so that sinners will turn back to you.
    {Oh Lord my testimony can be so much for you if I let you work and have BIG fatih!}
    Deliver me from the guilt of bloodshed, O God,
    you who are God my Savior,
    and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.
    Open my lips, Lord,
    and my mouth will declare your praise.
    You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;
    you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.
    {That’s right! I can’t do this on my own willpower, an offering of hard-headed behavioral modifications! I must allow you to work!}
    My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit;
    a broken and contrite heart
    you, God, will not despise.”
    God bless you today.


    Poverty isn’t what we think it is…

    Have you ever heard that the persecuted believers of other nations pity us?

    The ones who have to hide to worship Jesus underground or in a tar-paper shack pity us, in our multi-million dollar homes and church facilities.


    I think that although a lot of the countries where persecution is real  are poorer, they are really the wealthy ones. We are the poor ones. 

    I think true poverty falls on the ones who can’t seem to let go of the American dream, climbing that ladder, clambering to be heard and to sit at the head table. {Tweet this!}

    The wealthy in spirit are those who have nothing. Their very faith in God could put them in prison but still trust in God like it’s all up to Him.

    We should commit to boldly and persistently pray for our persecuted brothers and sisters! We should ask God how we Americans need to wake up and humble ourselves as the collective. How we need to seek His face like never before.

    2 Chronicles 7:14, “If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land.”

    Luke 14, “When Jesus noticed that all who had come to the dinner were trying to sit in the seats of honor near the head of the table, he gave them this advice: “When you are invited to a wedding feast, don’t sit in the seat of honor. What if someone who is more distinguished than you has also been invited? The host will come and say, ‘Give this person your seat.’ Then you will be embarrassed, and you will have to take whatever seat is left at the foot of the table!

    “Instead, take the lowest place at the foot of the table. Then when your host sees you, he will come and say, ‘Friend, we have a better place for you!’ Then you will be honored in front of all the other guests. For those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted.”

    Philippians 2, “In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus:
    Who, being in very nature God,
    did not consider equality with God something to be used to his own advantage;
    rather, he made himself nothing
    by taking the very nature of a servant,
    being made in human likeness.
    And being found in appearance as a man,
    he humbled himself
    by becoming obedient to death—
    even death on a cross!”

    Can I Have Your Attention, Please? | All About Worship – Reblog

    Can I Have Your Attention PLEASE?!?!?!?! | All About Worship | Podcasts, Interviews, Music, Resources.

    This article about sums up my feelings + convictions of the Holy Spirit from my earlier post {The Pinterest and Selfies Age}, … except they say it better. It also pertains less to our social media and more to worship leading or music making and our image in the eyes of others. Whose approval do we need if we have Gods’ approval?

    God accepts me.
    God validates me.
    God loves me.
    God HEARS me.

    1 Timothy 1:15-16, NKJV

    “The saying is trustworthy and deserving of full acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am the foremost. But I received mercy for this reason, that in me, as the foremost, Jesus Christ might display his perfect patience as an example to those who were to believe in him for eternal life.”