Draw Near to God, He is already Near to You

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Recently I thought I had too much on my plate. I exercised my ability to say “no”, and took my day off seriously. Looking to the future: I tossed the idea of cutting down my hours at work. I wanted to work on future details of our family, make our house a home, and visit my family back home more.

None of that was the plan, for now.

In a recent turn of events I was asked to take on more of a leadership role at the Church, with more responsibility, with pay cuts and budget cuts all across the board for our church.

So. I dropped my plans and fell on my face before Jesus. He has been my Rock. I have peace. I have joy. I am brave.

I know God will make it possible for me to plan our future as a family, cook, clean, plan visits, have people over, take care of our pets, enjoy life… all while taking on this important calling. I just need to listen to His voice.

I’m ashamed to say in these times of turmoil… they are the sweetest times of worship for me.

Why can’t I seem to be this close to my Lord during the good times?

I realized today that I find the most peace and joy in the trials– not because God has changed, but because I have. Tweet this.

Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you {HE IS already close by}. Cleanse your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. James 4:8


What you Believe about you is not who you are

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“Worry is a down-payment on a problem you may never have.”

I found this article I’d like to share particularly helpful!

“A stands for: Activating Event
B stands for: Belief
C stands for: Consequent Emotion”

… what do you believe about an actual situation that came to pass? If you’re like me… you belive it’s all your fault and that everyone hates you because of it. Everyone thinks, “She’s such a failure.” That’s what these voices say! I want them to stop.

The article goes on to say that labeling irrational thoughts is one of the many steps to recovery from anxiety taking over your life. Call a spade a spade. “This is an anxiety attack.” or, “That thought is irrational. Lord, who do You see me as?”

I hope this is as helpful for you as it was for me.



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Apologize. That word always sits in my throat like an egg, I can hardly force my vocal cords to want to verbalize “I want to…. Ap – ol – o – gize.”

Why is this such a forgotten concept in our culture? No one ever wants to apologize because maybe, just maybe it means they are wrong. {Tweet this Quote!}

Although I know deep, deep down that I am wrong- saying it out loud puts me in such a vulnerable place that I feel like I’m giving a speech naked in front of 1,000 people.

But I am on a long journey of asking God’s Holy Spirit who I am designed to be, instead of who I am currently acting as. {Tweet this Quote!} If God wants us to strive to be holy and perfect, although we know as human beings we’ll never attain it… shouldn’t we try? Philippians 3:12, “I don’t mean to say that I have already achieved these things or that I have already reached perfection. But I press on to possess that perfection for which Christ Jesus first possessed me.”

I read one of those cutesy life change quotes yesterday. It said, “Do something every day that scares you.” Well I think besides the zombie apocalypse or giving a speech in my birthday suit, apologizing to someone I’ve hurt is my #1 fear. Check that off my daily to-do list for like… a whole week, son.

Can I tell you something though? Each time you apologize to someone who deserves it- it gets easier. Not easy, just easier. Even as a minister, I’ve used words that have cut down and wounded others; whether I meant to or not. Once you speak a word you cannot get it back. It’s a done deal.

Good thing Jesus dying on the cross for the eternity of harsh words is also a done deal.  {Tweet this Quote!}
Can I tell you something else? That feeling you get each time you pick up the phone to call and apologize, or the laptop to type… that feeling that says:

  • “You’re being so doofy.”
  • “You can’t apologize now, it’s too late.”
  • “They don’t even remember. And even if they do, they won’t forgive you!”
  • “You’re making a bigger deal of this than it really was…”
  • “They hate you for what you did.”
    or the biggest, “What you did is etched in time. You can’t fix it now. There’s no hope.”
  • Those feelings are all lies from Satan himself to get you to harbor that original bitterness and keep your apology shut in your head, never to restore a relationship. Never to become more like Christ by admitting your wrongs.

    Those are the things satan wants. Good thing he has no power where God’s Light shines! Good thing the Light of Christ lives within each of us who believe and follow Christ. Good thing it is for freedom we are set free! Good thing Jesus already died on the cross for those harsh words you spoke, those deeds you did. {Tweet this Quote!}

    So be free. Pick up the phone. The pen. The laptop. Make it right. Swallow your pride, Brittany.

    Jesus was so relational, that He laid down His life for His friends. Let’s be willing to at least lay aside our pride for ours. John 15:13, “Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends.” {Tweet this Quote!}

    The Kind of Request God Answers Immediately


    I got thinking about this: when we pray for the Holy Spirit to convict us of areas we need to change or habits we can’t seem to shake- God answers and delivers right away.
    There are silly flaws and habits I can’t seem to shake, like talking or rambling too long, biting my nails, whatever. But at the root of a lot of them for me is low confidence & longing to be heard. Which in turn means low confidence in God’s work in my life and how He hears and loves me as His child.
    I told him this, and as I was asking, I realized He was about to change me, and help me. I told him I can’t do it on my own anymore. I told Him I acknowledge His goodness in the past is still the goodness He will give in the future. I told Him I recognize and acknowledge His power and mercy. I told Him I want to stop trying to kick these habits and hangups on my own and become the woman He intended for me to be.
    I love how David asks God to take everything away that’s of him and allow God to work in His life in Psalm 51:10-17;
    “Create in me a pure heart, O God,
    and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
    Do not cast me from your presence
    or take your Holy Spirit from me.
    Restore to me the joy of your salvation
    and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.
    Then I will teach transgressors your ways,
    so that sinners will turn back to you.
    {Oh Lord my testimony can be so much for you if I let you work and have BIG fatih!}
    Deliver me from the guilt of bloodshed, O God,
    you who are God my Savior,
    and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.
    Open my lips, Lord,
    and my mouth will declare your praise.
    You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;
    you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.
    {That’s right! I can’t do this on my own willpower, an offering of hard-headed behavioral modifications! I must allow you to work!}
    My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit;
    a broken and contrite heart
    you, God, will not despise.”
    God bless you today.


    Can I Have Your Attention, Please? | All About Worship – Reblog

    Can I Have Your Attention PLEASE?!?!?!?! | All About Worship | Podcasts, Interviews, Music, Resources.

    This article about sums up my feelings + convictions of the Holy Spirit from my earlier post {The Pinterest and Selfies Age}, … except they say it better. It also pertains less to our social media and more to worship leading or music making and our image in the eyes of others. Whose approval do we need if we have Gods’ approval?

    God accepts me.
    God validates me.
    God loves me.
    God HEARS me.

    1 Timothy 1:15-16, NKJV

    “The saying is trustworthy and deserving of full acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am the foremost. But I received mercy for this reason, that in me, as the foremost, Jesus Christ might display his perfect patience as an example to those who were to believe in him for eternal life.”